It Could be Worse and that Is Good to Know

    I was thinking of writing a blog post called the Self Misanthrope, or subtitled something about not liking one's own actions or something like that.

    Sure, negativity crops up at times. Hopefully not too much and not too often. Trying to be realistic, and stay balanced. I looked for two offices today, that may not exist. I went to the right building without knowing it. Sort of a good chase. I thought of some feelings and looks or reactions of a couple of people from last year, and it made me feel kind of bad. We cannot please all the people all the time.

    People care about others but no one wants to be a drag to someone else. A hindrance, a discomfitter. Sometimes we can feel like a burden, or a drag, if you will. I have some contacts in worse straights than me. Straits.

    Today I thought of some of my time when living in Provo, when I was younger. I remember not being the biggest winner. Perhaps I struggled, and I coped and kept moving. Nothing that great, perhaps nothing really notable. Maybe I was sub-par? Maybe I am sub-par. Life is not a competition. But many times we do compete. Even with ourselves.

    Which brings negatives feelings. Speaking of negative things.

    My friend, from my church affiliations, is attending a different faith, doing Bible classes and regular attendance. It is more her style. She was afraid of telling me, but I gave her my voice of support.

    My friend from part time work is struggling financially. He is trying to branch out and get more work. He is doing classes to make some money. I helped him, which he says he will pay me back. We will see.

    My other friend, who texted me a lot recently, is living out of his vehicle. He has physical and health problems with all the financial issues. Life is not great for him!

    Oh, and a young man I know has a serious case of brain cancer, dealing with radiation treatment and chemotherapy. His family and friends love him dearly and this is not an easy or ideal situation for anyone.

    So, my life could be worse. 

    Although, I struggle to do all things right. Tought to be better disciplined and higher aimed. I cannot overcome and surpass that much. I try to stay even keel, which is not alway good per the general or my specific population.

    Yeah.