Sunday, October 1, 2017

La pura poesia de Mexico

La pura poesia de Mexico

It is to be noted that the country of Mexico has many names that are quite poetic upon further investigation. Many of the names of cities and geographic locations are pleasing to the ear, to the artistic sense of beauty.

Reading, pronouncing, and repeating these names is a thing of art. 

Where to start?

Some of the states themselves are aesthetically pleasing, perhaps Coahuila and Chihuahua, Sinaloa and Sonora. Say them or chant them in a song, a perhaps you have a poem.

On the desert border of Coahuila and Chihuahua is Guimbalete.

GWEEM BA LAY TAY.

I don't think many people have been there, or have heard of it, but it could do you right to pronounce it, to repeat it's soothing sound.

Guimbalete.

Not far south of there is Lagunas de Palomas. Say that a few times.

LAH GOO NAS DAY PAH LO MAS.

More later, ojala que mucho mas.



Sunday, September 24, 2017

Talking to Mom

      Talking to Mom

     I lived long enough to know what it is like to talk my mom. I spoke with her over four decades. She had serious cancer in her 70s, fought it, and passed away. That was three and half years ago. I was in my forties then. (Still am; now mid-forties). My youngest children didn't get to know her much, and my older ones as well, the more I think about it.

A mother like many others. And a grandmother. An aunt. A friend to many.

Ruth Muriel Carpenter, formerly Ruth Clinch until 1985, formerly Ruth McWilliams until 1965.

People change names over times, especially women. A lady like many others.

But for reasons intrinsic to humanity, she was my lady. My mom.

I spoke with her in my thoughts:

"Hi,  Mom! How have you been?"

"Good! I have missed you and the children, my grandchildren, but they are doing okay. I see that. I have been working with some in my area that are in need of attention, and that makes me happy."

"Wow! Where are they from?"

"All over. But the ones assigned to me have special meaning to what I have experienced. Many children, but some old timers, too, many from New England. And then I visit with the people of Togo. I have had to learn more French, for sure, and I learn some of their tribal language words. Some much closer to Adamic, it has stayed closer to God's language. And then I cross over to those from Sierra Leone. I learn more about their foods and their tastes, things familiar and prized by them. We cook all sorts of goodies. And no one is so sick like I saw in my time in West Africa. The heavens are well organized and sensible."

"Do you see your family that has passed on?"

"Sure, we have plenty of time to visit. They take notes on the living, that is for sure. People do or do not believe in God while they are alive, but many fail to realize that like the hymn says, "angels are silent, notes taking". That is so true! God is the ultimate authority, but there are a lot of people involved in the whole system of God. Hard to track how many. And the things that we do or say are defended or prosecuted like in a court. But it is not patterned after how US courts or tribunals are. It is much more personal. I have been a witness on many boards. It usually involves a lot of laughter and some tears. And we always eat really well during and after. And they can last a while... But there are always more to do."

"Do people benefit from these sessions like therapy or classes?"

"Yes, you could say that, but it is so enriching to see things from a better point of view. The human mind is capable of understanding these things, but unfortunately people get wrapped up in their personal cares, some which are very necessary like food and health, shelter and safety. Others who have all those things get distracted by selfish pleasures or even destructive ones. We are all kids who must obey our parents, in the end."

"How are your parents?"

"They are well. Very funny couple. I never realized how much they contributed to their surroundings. They are well respected for their love and dedication. They are gifted and doing a lot of work. My siblings and I were blessed to have been raised by them. You and your posterity are certainly blessed through them and their ancestors."

"Wow, life sounds good."

"It is. My brain works better: French is very common sense. Khmer is too, as well as Bahasa. I am on my tenth language, counting the local dialects like Mende and Temne. English is a fine way to communicate, but I have found out that these other human tongues are very key to knowing how the whole human family lives and prospers. Learning jokes in these different cultures is so fun! And French goes every where, like to the Indian and Pacific Oceans, places I could not visit as much. And the work there is very pressing, as always."

"What is the work, exactly?"

"You know it. Start with Genesis and go from there. There are some Indian and Chinese, even some Toltec and Mayan writings that explain it. Us humans were not too far off as we wrote our histories and affairs. But certain people know the program better than others. Pay attention to them."

"Which ones are the most important?"

"That's for you to figure out, I am not at liberty to say, for you."

"Do you miss talking to your closest loved ones?"

"Of course, but I have access to many files, and I review some of those. And I keep meeting others that have things that I need to see and experience. Lots of extended family. The movies produced here are so amazing. It would put most filmmakers to shame. A lot of the content of the films made on earth is more like garbage and waste than anything truly artistic. Of course, there are beautiful exceptions. I wish the film boards could get more of those right. C'est la vie."

"Have you met anyone that has truly surprised you?"

"Oh, yes. Some of the so-called "great ones" tend to be somewhat simple and even narrow minded. Some have a hard time accepting the truth. So we work with them, sometimes more. But many others who were never renowned help the more famous ones a lot."

"Well, I have got to go. Sorry, Mom, I am not sure how I found you or you me, and I have been informed this conversation is enough for now. I love you, you know that. I miss you, but I see your personality and charm in others, and that brightens my day."

"Yes, Eddie, that is what life is about: find the good in others, see the similarities and patterns of what is worthwhile, and keep sharing it. Enjoy it! Every minute provides treasures and joys. And it does not end. It keeps building. Things are how they should be, you simply have to accept it and live it."

"Thanks, Mom. I am glad we had this talk. I am not sure I will remember it. Like words and songs you shared with me when I was baby."

"That's okay, your soul is a great recorder, and all the input is saved. The bad stuff can be expunged and filtered for purity, but the good conversations and messages of love are always there. Like God, our Father, like His Son, like your family. We're forever, and we only move on. I have to go, too, but we'll talk again sooner than you think."

"Love you."

"Love you too, Eddie Bear. Be nice to people."

"I will, Mom. Thanks for showing all your kindness."

"My pleasure. It's the best thing there is. We only give back what we receive. I have been incredibly blessed. We simply continue doing that. Life is good."

"Yep, it is. I will try to tell others that."

"Of course you will. That's why you are who you are. That's why we were assigned to where we went. It all fits, like the planets in our solar system. All our lives make sense if we choose to see how it all fits. And it is huge and small at the same time. It's perfect. I'm not sure if Mark Twain lost his mind, but he definitely lost a lot of his hope due to personal losses. Don't let that happen to you. He has told me that he needed a re-boot, and he is happy that occurred, but he wants others to look past the tragedies. Reach for the hope. Okay, that's all! You know I am thinking of my guardian angel grandchildren! They are great! Au revoir!"

A mother and grandmother like many others.

But we all have our own to know and cherish.

Hold on to yours.

Be grateful she held you.

Hold on to love. Memories, conversations, shared and passed on.

Monday, September 4, 2017

BYU Football Blanked: Fans are Chagrined

BYU Football Blanked: Fans are Chagrined, Cultural Implications

Ach, nein! The BYU Cougar football team, in the second year of Coach Kilani Sitake, in the beginning month September of 2017 in the Superdome of New Orleans, in the second game of the season, are blanked for only the third time this century. It has happened now once each to the last three coaches of this Church school, which expects a lot from its team and players. And coaches.
    Prior to being held to 0 in 2003 against arch-rival Utah at the end of an ill-fated season, and under the then ill-fated Coach Gary Crowton, Brigham Young University had held the NCAA record for consecutive games without being blanked, which had gone on for decades, since 1975, and it happened versus Arizona State. That auspicious streak had run for 28 years! Not bad. And possibly still the best ever this far into the 21st century. But this is a new era since Coach Edwards stepped down in 2000.
   BYU was again held to no points in 2015 against Michigan, which turned out to be the last year of a decent tenure of Bronco Mendenhall, he who succeeded a less than successful Crowton.  
   And now enter Sitake. Can BYU push another 26 year scoring streak, which would would push out to 2043 or so? Time will tell.

   For now, the here-to-fore optimistic Cougars must lick their wounds and get ready for another formidable opponent in Utah next Saturday.  BYU has to figure out how to move the chains and score some points. Perhaps it will not win, which is one concern,like they have lost to the Utes the last five years in a row, but they have to show up on offense. Win or lose, they must score.

   No matter the score at the end, the Cougars score points. And they are a respectable school for football, coast to coast, in general competition and winning as a program. They win most of their games consistently. They go to bowl games every year. They are successful, and this is an imprimatur since the mid-1970s of the legendary Lavell Edwards, the coach who put Provo on the college football map.

   Having grown up as a part of the Latter-day Saint community in the Mid-West, where many people are not sure who or what Mormons are, the BYU football team represented our faith with some degree of respectability and pride. Winning the national championship in 1984 certainly was a big deal, not just on a sports level, but showing that a smaller state, a smaller religion, could rise to the level of power and influence and be something, be the best. Some might say that this bespeaks the greatness of the United States, and also as a new American religion attempting to be legitimate along  other Christian faiths, perhaps this was the bellwether moment of the Church of Jesus Christ's "arrival".

Through an all-American and heralded sport such as football, the Church proved that it belongs, and this by the 1980s. This is a new relatively small faith. It showed, to a certain degree, at least psychologically for many Mormons and non-members, that the LDS Church is a partner and presence to be reckoned with.
In the years since, the team has never achieved such a height as that 1984 renown, but its power has been displayed decade after decade. And it had that scoring streak as part of the proof. 

BYU may not always win all its games, but it plays with the best and it scores points.

And to a few of us, the cultural implication, like a good Catholic who supports Notre Dame, our faith is bolstered by the impressive exploits of the team. The faith in our faith remains higher because of a sport with a pig-skin, and its reputation of formidability.

So, when the team fails to score (as Saturday's final against Louisiana State 27-0 pitifully ended), and the team that since the late 1970s plays anybody, anywhere, showing it is as good as Notre Dame, or certainly Texas Christian or Baylor, capable of competing against and AND beating the best of the college world, a few of us fans and members of our faith take it as a psychological blow.

Doubts, although logically improbable, start to seep in.

Maybe our team is not as good as we thought we were? Check.

Maybe BYU as a football and even academic institution is not as good as we thought, or hoped? Check.

Maybe all those criticisms and jokes about Latter-day Saints and their culture and practices have more truth than we would like to admit? Check.

Maybe believing in modern day prophets and scripture besides the Bible is far fetched, and simply wishful or even delusional thinking? Check.

Maybe even the Bible itself, and the mission of the Son of God, and all the hopes and missions of all Christian and other religious holy people over the millenia is based in wishful thinking, that has no greater benefit to it? Uh, check.

Maybe the world is only what we see? Empirical truthes are all we can trust in? There is no supernatural power beyond ourselves? Well, check.

And all this, to me and maybe a few others, because Tanner Mangum and his running backs and receivers and tight ends could not get near the LSU endzone.

Football and BYU team fans have to watch themselves in such trying times on this existential slippery slope of confusion and despair.

Be careful, Cougar fans. There is next game. And we will score. We may not beat Utah for the first time in my youngest child's lifetime, but BYU will move the ball. And fine the endzone.

I have hope and faith. Check.

We are, after all, who we thought we were.

We are: the Brigham Young University Cougars.

We are coming for your team next. 

Best of luck next time, LSU Tigers. We will be back, hopefully with no historic hurricane involved.

And your defense better be ready.

Check.





 


Sunday, July 23, 2017

Investigating the English Teachers: Seeking Dreams and Passions through Literature

 Investigating the English Teachers, Up to 8th Grade

  Seeking Dreams and Passions through Literature and Language, and the People who Take the Charge of Conveying them to Us (begun Spring 2016?)

    Over the course of a lifetime we accrue many English teachers, yes? We Americans, we native English speakers of this now universal yet quaintly local tongue that originates from the northwestern European islands. The mother language of the English descending from Anglo-Saxons originating a bit over a thousand years ago: the poetic syntax, song and cadence of it; an amalgam of Latin and Germanic, and a thousand other rare sounds and sights and ideas. Like other tongues spoken, but unique in its presence and function in today's 21st century. It is spoken throughout the globe, even in lands where they speak other native languages like Chinese, Spanish, Arabic, or French.

    And for this purpose, to be conversant and more in this language, among many functions, we have those English teachers. To shape and craft us, guide us and lead us, to take us to imaginative forays and places mentally and socially, to help us communicate and express, explain and convince, persuade ourselves and others, in logic and thought. Thousands and millions and thoughts and feelings to channel...

     Seeking our dreams and passions through literature and language, oral and silent, which tell myriad stories of our souls. The stories and writings channel who we are and who we want to be. Our English teachers lead us to ourselves.

    Sometimes. They lead us somewhere, anyway, in classes if not imagination and school, at least in chronological time periods. September. Fall Semester. Winter break, Friday morning...

As US citizens there had to be one teacher per year, in most cases, at least as the majority of us attend public schools. For me it started in the 1970s, formally at Elm Heights, a two story brick elementary school close to the Indiana University campus in Bloomington. A mid-American college town.

Mrs. Williams (student teacher Miss Howard/Turner) 1976-1977
Mrs. Koryta      1977-1978
Mrs. Wade        1978-1979
Mrs. Swinford  1979-1980
Mrs. Key          1980-81
Mrs. Daniels    1981-1982
Mrs. Albright   1982-1983
Mrs. Sperry      1983-1984
Mrs. Findley      1984-1985
Mrs. Horning   1985-1986
Mrs. Morrow 1986-1987 Arts and Humanities Mrs. Nowling  1986--Greeks and Latin Derivatives
Mrs. Granich   1987-1988
Mrs. Clapacs   1988-1989 ---the IU admin's wife...
Mrs. College Summer 1992 Re-do Writing 101
Mrs. College Summer 1994 Advanced Writing 301

    Sometimes we have more than one academic year with one English teacher, if it works out that way. My daughter has had this occur in her two years of high school. English teachers instruct uS about literal language, the language of our birth. Usually they help re-craft the language that our parents and siblings have been hurling at us for years. They teach us understanding and style, choice and taste. They take our papers and mark them, comment on them, place stickers on them. They introduce us to authors and writers that perhaps we should be aware of; so that we can be considered literate.

    Literacy, and art. There is the pragmatic of literacy and there is the art above it.

     There are language teachers... Who in many ways can expand our native language and understanding. I've had a few of those.

    Mrs. Koryta was a nice first year teacher for me; her first year ever as a parabulist. I did not know much about spelling or writing on paper, but we made sentences together. Nothing too fancy. But she was a patient and enthusiastic teacher, the right person for me. She made learning how to spell and read fun, non-threatening, rewarding.

    Putting together words to make up sentences. Sentences that create stories and arguments, histories and documentations. We learn how to confirm what we may really think. This is growing up.

    Mrs. Wade in second grade encouraged us to sharpen our spelling, expand our ever growing vocabulary, and even to write stories! Stories! What were better than those? It was that year at that precocious age I was resolved and determined that I would write a compelling story. I tried to doao with my big pencils and big print pages of dotted lines.

    In those days I would listen to albums and cassette tapes at my home: some were short stories about myths and fables, some mysteries and spooky stories from Alfred Hitchcock, some about Sinbad or the Red Baron, and there was this one about a magic tailor... That one caught my fancy, captured my imagination, compelled me to write such a story. And somehow make it be mine.

    I tried back then, in my limited second grade prose. I aspired to be that fabulist, that raconteur. I was not able to finish it, despite composing 3 or 5 or 8 pages... the ideas were not totally mine, in any event, but the idea was mine to write a long story. Thus was one dream of literature in the 1970s.

    Third grade brought Mrs. Swinford, who introduced more adult and scientific words to our malleable minds. She was very keen to the language of photosynthesis; us little 8-9 and year-olds had a hard time understanding both why she wanted us to transcribe her fanatical high handed technical tracts as well as the actual language and concepts of the photosynthetic process. I suppose it helped some of us.

    In 4th grade Mrs. Key opened my mind up to the greater world: places like Iran, and Egypt and Israel in the present day beyond the Bible. Little black and white news films strips became a real part of my concepts of the world, inspiring more narratives, especially of the international, the greater world, yea, the expanding universe.

   Mrs. Daniels had a special penchant for literature and inspiration in the arts of prose; she was probably the right touch for me before leaving elementary school. She had developed us as fourth and fifth graders by helping us print and "publish" our books! (She worked with us in Mrs. Keys class, knowing that she would inherit us the following year.) I still have my two self-made books that I wrote and animated thanks to her; they both have to do with bunnies and travails that befall them. If I were never to write or produce any more literature since the 5th grade in 1981, at least I had written "The Easter Tale" and the "The Purple Hare".

     She read to us out loud as we sat at our desks and doodled; including a very well crafted book about a country boy and his Irish Setter, Big Red. As a father, decades later, I read this book to my children; I find that it is impressive as good prose. Very literate, well narrated, great vocabulary. It teaches lessons about real life like loyalty, trust, bravery, goodness, and plain out-door smarts and common sense. Mrs. Daniels was older, near retirement; she would get so emotional near the end of the book that for one chapter she would leave the class while a good reader would finish the climax where the main characters fought their nemesis, tooth and nail.

   I am sure that the sheer impact of a book, this book, the down home yet sophisticated prose of this story about a boy and a dog in the Appalachian mountains, with this effect upon a woman of experience and intelligence (Mrs. Daniels was an air traffic controller during World War II among other things), left a lasting and perhaps deep subliminal mark on me. The power of fiction and any narrative may evoke real reactions, emotions, consequences. This book and its story had power and beauty.

   Writers and their works had power, had eloquence, had beauty, had a sweet effect. Check.

   Sixth grade and middle school introduced a new panoply of English learning. Not only was it the language and styles of the actual English teachers and the books and readings and writings that they introduced in the formal classes, but it was the rest of the staff of this bigger environment of education: social studies, science, math, gym, band, wood shop, mechanical drawing, cooking. Plus there were all the new students from other schools with new ways of talking and communicating our group lexicon; the new administration and faculty, the very music from the juke-box in the lunch room cafeteria: all of it added to our language, our collective and sub-conscious English.

     Mrs. Albright was not only my regular English teacher that first year, but I had her for PLASC Lab, another of my seven (or six?) daily classes. This was an additional English class to allow us to sharpen our grammar skills and reading. This was a daily class, like the rest, where we were supposed to work on grammar books for four days and then read books of our choice on the fifth day, I suppose as a reward for all the week's work.

     At some point that fall of 1982, as a sixth grader with more private time  and autonomy than I had ever had in the public school system (except in third grade when I stayed in during recess for a month after a bout with mononucleuosis, reading many books) I found myself so engrossed and enthralled with this obligatory but limited "reading time", apart from everyone else, that I forgot about the grammar work books assigned Monday through Thursday. I dove into the pure joy of literary exploration and I did pure reading of books, including the first 90 or so pages of War and Peace. After all, it was an option in our selection (credit the person who placed it there). I was enjoying the story, thrilled by the fact that I could understand such a novel that was respected on so many levels. However, Mrs. Albright found out, discovered that I was not doing the daily work, and had me stop reading it!

     What? I suppose for the fact that I had already fallen behind in my workbook tasks and had taken advantage of reading other entire books on those allotted week day hours instead of completing grammar lessons, like reading a history book called "Black American Heroes of the Revolutionary War", and a teenage book about a kid with a magical green bike, and possibly a few others, had led her to believe that I was to be corrected. I obeyed her mandate; I stopped reading War and Peace; I have attempted to go back to it decades later, but I have not accomplished the reading since.

     I did have my daughter read it as sixth grader because I was away and I exacted a type of revenge, redemption, or justice on that travesty of my history as a reader and English student. I am glad my daughter did this. I need to talk to her more about what that book means. She tells me the main protagonist is Pierre... (side note for further discussion).

     Seventh grade brought on the world of Mrs. Sperry in two doses: the first was the high-minded and well mannered Mrs. Sperry. I had this version of her for my first semester in the fall and winter of 1983, a time of change for me and my family since my parents were going through marital and family adjustments. The next stages of separation and divorce began the year before.
      It was a fall where I fell short of my goal of joining the middle school football team, as I had been fancying for a few years; maybe I then (at least sub-consciously) saw myself as more of an English student because of it, maybe words on pages and stories took greater meaning to me since I could not manifest as much of my hopes and energies on the field of play, as I had dreamt of doing awake and asleep since the fourth grade. Perhaps I became more of a voyeur of the sport then and ever since, forever gaping at the waves and tumults of the seas that I could not venture upon as an intrepid sailor or captain of my own vessel. But-- watching the sea tides and swells brought a sense of joy nevertheless.  Following and processing these competitions was an ethereal desire that I would chase over horizons, a phantom of inexplicable mystery that is there in front of you but can never be obtained. But the chase, the journey, is compelling. Albeit vicarious.

    Like Melville's Ahab and that fantastically terrifying yet enervating white whale, a something we cannot quite understand nor obtain. We all have muses and monsters that haunt and elate us. Playing a sport, observing a sport, describing and narrating that sport, this passion play in an open venue across the ubiquitous air and sound waves, it becomes the elusive shark that the Old Man and the Sea endeavors to return back to shore, the trip of Ulysses, Odysseus, the voyage that never truly ends.

     It is life.


A lot like life. Stories to live and tell. Reading, tracking, listening to stories unfold across the multi-media.

     Seventh grade and no football for me. My cleats and mouth guard abandoned to some forgotten locker. But other worlds awaited on Friday nights. Mrs. Sperry was wealthy; did not need to work; fellow students mentioned that she never wore the same pair of shoes twice; I as a young son of an electrician and a copy shop manager did not care very much about her economic status. She was prim and proper, strict but fair, courteous and authoritative as woman of some 55 or more years. Stately, older, but still a person of youthful vigor when it came to style and presentation. She had a certain demeanor with us of the English Honors class, to the audience of children of college professors and successfully self-made Americans.  I would then come to learn, the hard way, that this comportment would change for others not of our privileged ilk.

    Midway through the academic year in early 1984 I was forced to switch down to the regular level English class with some of the lesser regarded students of Binford Middle School. I left the Honors class but retained Mrs. Sperry. I was rather taken aback, shocked at her changed disposition towards my new class of under-achievers. She was aggressive, mean, I guess you might call it more condescending. I believe that she was embarrassed by this fact since I had seen the "higher" side of her the previous semester. But, it is hard to play so many roles within roles while carrying out a daily job with so many children of formative impressions; she knew what worked per class and audience. Lessons learned about attitudes and professional workmanship.

   1984: a year of some literary renown. Gratefully, Mr. Courtney, a man who cared to explain the ideas and subject matter of George Orwell, was my teacher in social studies for the second year in a row; his influence on my ideas and knowledge, literature, and world events and history carried the greater weight as to my general outlook and inspirations. George Orwell, indeed.

   I finished the year in this spring"bone-head" English, as we, my fellow 7th grade buddies called the lower level class, as we knew it to be deficient of our higher capabilities and intellects. Most of my friends were always placed in the highest level courses, be it math or English or anything else. By then I definitely considered myself a good reader and strong with the language, and academics and thinking in general: it was a point of pride, enough so that I gave up my band career (I played the clarinet) since my music period interfered with "English literature and good books", the language of my interests.

   Books and reading had become a large part of my raison de etre, a large part of how I thought of myself. A reader. A thinker. An absorber, a type of sponge, like so many of us, of information and stories. I had the internal dialogue that based on losing the Honors status and treatment that " I didn't want to let playing an instrument get in the way of my English career." I really thought that way, and told a few people, including my band teacher who tried to implore me to continue in the musical arts. "Never again," I swore, "would an instrument retard my language talents." A conscious decision to stick to books, to reading, to writing, to crafting an art of then and now. And the future.

     My family was going through some turbulent times as the divorce went forward and became legal as I was an eighth grader. Mrs. Findley was my 8th grade English teacher at the new Batchelor Middle School, located in the country where we were bused, with new kids, mostly country folk. It was different and not the best, but not the worst. I knew about this personal background of Mrs. Findley, who used to be Mrs. Mull, but ended up leaving her former husband and marrying Mr. Findley, who happened to be the father of one of my sister's best friends. It was awkward, and things did not seem as they should. So, two of my sister's closest friends became step-sisters, and the whole drama seemed a little Shakespearean or something more sordid. This was one strike against her, sad to say. But I think I gave her the benefit of the doubt, beyond this question of character. But impressions come in sundry ways, as follows.

   She was a decent English teacher; after reading Jack London's "Call of the Wild" and being inspired to buy a large anthology of his at a university bookstore and proudly showing it to her in between classes one day, her rather less than enthusiastic response made me wonder if she really cared about writing, books, or even me as student of prose and the written word. Curious. Perhaps aspects of this author was a turn off for her personally. He was labeled, after all, as a Communist and misogynist.

      Maybe she was only having a blah day; perhaps she did not realize the signal she sent me as she seemed to lose interest in my new found writer. I feel bad saying something as critical as this about her and the part about her personal life, but us students do not live in vacuums. And believe it or not, we pay attention and are influenced by the tastes, styles, attitudes, efforts, and reactions of our teachers. Some of us don't forget. Perhaps we do become unfairly critical. We may carry lessons and memories with us for a long time. Maybe forever, both the formal and in-between-the-lines messages.

     That is the big point of writing such an essay/memoir: to show that we do become products of that which we are exposed to, what is attempted to be inculcated upon us. Linguistically, academically, socially, visually, scientifically, the teachers of subjects, in this case English, course through our thoughts and emotions for many years. It is the lifeblood of our souls that are being tampered with, touched, or lifted.

      Some English teachers affect us more than others, some probably affect us subliminally and sub-consciously for the rest of our lives.

      May we be so lucky to know what happened throughout our lives as far as who pushed what buttons, who pressed feelings and interests this way and that, why we end up doing and saying and writing and thinking what we do, sometimes as a result of these instructors.

      Much of it has no bearing, assuredly, and much of it we can never decipher. But it might be worth digging up a little. If it be just a little insightful.

     Words to ponder. People to reflect on. Memories to consider.

     Teachers to learn from. Always.




Friday, July 7, 2017

Lovable Losers in Baseball: An American Phenomenon

    Lovable Losers in Baseball: An American Phenomenon

     On this Independence Day of 2017 I wish to address a few things that are intrinsic to my native land of the United States of America. Americana, writ large? Perhaps.

  The older I get, the more seasons I have seen and lived, the more I like to postulate on some things. It's either wisdom or foolishness, or a combination of both.

    Like baseball. It's an American sport that has taken root in a few other continents and cultures, particularly some islands in the Caribbean and the Far East. Spanish, Japanese, Korean, and Taiwanese are some languages of baseball in the 21st century. The sport has grown and should continue to do so.
 
    Here in the United States where baseball has its tried and true stalwart fans and new generations of players and markets, there are 30 top teams spread across the country that have their constituencies.

   Of these thirty  biggest teams known as major league organizations, the New York Yankees are the wealthiest, having the longest history of Word Series championship teams, and arguably has the most fans and supporters. This translates to more money and more likelihood of the chance of success. Other franchises have storied histories of success, which now include even the former lovable losers Chicago Cubs (2016), and before them the Boston Red Sox for many decades of frustration. They were cursed despite years of incredible talent over the decades, since the earliest times of the 20th century. They are off the snide and now are one of the more successful Word Series teams of the 21st century.

    And yet, there are still teams that have never tasted of the ultimate victory in the Fall Classic. Granted, some of the teams have been created in more recent decades and have not had all the years of opportunity like the original 16 clubs at the turn of the 20th century, like the Colorado Rockies and Tampa Bay Devil Rays, but other newer franchises have won at least one or even two in their nascent existences. These early Word Series champs would be Arizona and Miami (Florida), respectively. People still pay money to see these never-final-winners play, however, and the money and livelihoods of these players and their managers and owners are maintained, thus still living the American dream of prosperity, but without all the glory.

  Who are they? When I think of losers, ever-competing but never satisfying the ultimate goal,  they are the following:

San Diego Padres. Founded 1969. Lost World Series twice.

Seattle Mariners. Expanded to majors in 1977. Never been to World Series.

Texas Rangers. (Moved to Arlington as new Washington Senators in 1971, the second team originated in DC in 1961). Lost world series twice.

Houston Astros. Expansion team as Colt .45s in 1962. Made it to one World Series and lost.

Washington Nationals. 4th team in DC; expanded from Montreal Expos, created in 1969 and moved to the District in 2005. Never been to World Series. The second DC team Senators won once; they became the Minnesota Twins in 1961.

Tampa Bay (Devil) Rays. Expansion team since 1998. Never been to World Series.

Colorado Rockies. Expansion team since 1998. Made it to one World Series and lost.  

Milwaukee Brewers. Originally were Seattle Pilots in 1969 and moved to the Midwest in 1970. Made it to one World Series and lost.

   Eight teams chasing this elusive championship in October, along with all the other ones that have won in the near or distant past like the recent Chicago Cubs and Cleveland Indians, that had not won in anyone's lifetimes, (and the Tribe still hasn't since the 1940s; the games and payrolls and fanbases continue.

   The crowds and tickets and uniforms and television contracts, commercials, and sponsorships go on: the American way persists unabated with no single season of exuberant joy and fulfillment for these eight competitors.

    Forever chasing the Yankees, the Cardinals, the Red Sox (the 21st century certainly has reversed the curse with three Word Series rings for them), the Giants, and even the low income Marlins, and here-to-fore Cubbies.  The former lovable losers.

   So in 2017 and beyond, some of these teams look to have a chance. Not San Diego.  The Padres are not there this year. But others are knocking on the door: the Astros, the Nats, maybe the Rockies or the Brewers.

    It could happen. It will eventually, right? 

    Of course it will. This is America. This is baseball.

   This is the field of dreams. Dreams do come true, even if you get rained on a lot in the extreme Northwest, freeze by the lake in Wisconsin, suffer sweltering summers in Texas,  experience mile high air sickness in the mountains, put up with political trials of the beltway, or heaven forbid, are overly tempted by the beaches of the Gulf of Mexico or the Pacific Ocean.

   Baseball, dreams, and the prize of October find a way. Even for the losers that we have come to love. 

     And this is America, the United States of the Free World, the most powerful country on the planet. It has many flaws; it can be  somewhat bullyish on its interests and declarations. It has been in involved in military campaigns and trade embargoes that have positively and negatively impacted countless millions across its own territories and the entire globe.
    
   Baseball is another of its merits and  symbols, an urban bucolic representation of its fields and might. And even the last eight stragglers of which we have mentioned have their majesty and honor, like each of the states of the blue field of Old Glory.

   Baseball fulfills ancient prophesy. The first will be last, and the last shall be first.

   Play ball. 






  

Sunday, June 18, 2017

The Principal Takes Control

    The Principal Takes Control 

    In the Inland Empire of Southern California there are many public high schools where the students suffer from a lack of a few critical things that help them be effective students. This list includes parents that do not make much money and therefore struggle to support their children; there are also parents that are missing, absent from the home, illegally subsisting due to documentation issues, imprisoned for criminality, running or abusing drugs, or living irresponsibly in many other ways. There are many parents that are hard working law abiding citizens, yes, but because of the general malaise of surrounding neighborhoods and high school districts, all the children are under threat from many of the above mentioned problems that affect and afflict the adults as well as their families and children.
    One high school in San Bernardino had a young third year principal named Ron Bernal who was overwhelmed by the problems of discipline and general disrespect that would surge throughout the year and flare up especially as it got warmer in the spring. He noted that the surrounding high schools of his and surrounding cities were all similar:  they were suffering the same symptons of youthful rebelliousness that translated in some kids getting expelled, some getting hurt, some who were simple victims of being in the wrong place at the wrong time.  These sudden flare ups of emotion would affect morale among both the students and the staff, not to mention the school security. And of course worse educational and academics, as well as extra curricular activities were negatively impacted. Every year.
    One night he had an inspirational idea that he thought would help the situation: he was a religious guy who had been in the military. He knew that he could not impose military nor religious tactics to improve campus behavior and discipline. So he formulated his plan on a Sunday night and called up a counselor, a locally hired ombudsman, and both the football and basketball coaches. He explained his plan to them and then set up an after school meeting that Wednesday.
    He decided to call in 30 influential male students, with the help of the staff and the coaches in their selection as leaders of their peers to all meet in a class room at 4:00 pm that Wednesday after school. Based on how that went, he was going to do the same thing with 30 female students the following week.
    So that Wednesday at 4:00 pm the 35 of them convened at a classroom, strategically picked so that they would not be noticed by the rest of the student population. Doctor Bernal had gone out of his way to personally invite each of the thirty young men, offering to contact a parent or coach or boss or parole officer if necessary. These selected young men were going to be there.

    They were surprised when they got together and looked around their fellow classmates. Some were captains of the sports teams; some were known for crimes or even occasional gang associations, some had great grades and some not so much. But they all had one thing in common: they all had influence on their peers for good or bad.

   "Ok, guys, you don't know why we adults have called you here, but in a less than thirty minutes you will know why. We may or may not be successful at what I am suggesting that we do; my colleagues support me in this, so know that we have put some thought in it and we believe that this plan will help all of us. Just to let you know off the bat, the reason why you are here is because we know that each of you are strong and influential as leaders and your peers look up to you. That is a sincere compliment. If I were lying about that you could tell, I want you to trust me. Trust everybody in this room, including each other, old or young. That is part of what we want to do with this meeting.
   Bernal walked from one student to another, looking at each one. He set up the room so that he could walk all the way around, so no one would be too distant or hide from his stare, his message.
   He continued," Every year we have a problem, especially as the year ends. As our students get feistier, usually on a Friday around lunch, we get in pretty bad fights. Do I have to explain this? You all have been here for a while and you are not dumb. You have seen it, lived it. If you have been a part of it before: I am not here to blame you, or make you feel guilty. This has been going on for years and you did not start it. It's a natural occurrence for a few reasons. Got it.  But whether you realize it or not, these fights not only lead to students getting penalized and hurt, but our studies and grades suffer from it. And who is paying the most for these problems in the end? You the students. Not cool."
   Ron was quiet for a few seconds. Then he looked at the adults and the students. "Any questions or comments?" The adults shook their heads. Many of the young men did, too. Some looked perplexed or uncomfortable. But most were pretty interested, and they were thinking. Their curiosity was piqued.
    "So here it is, short and sweet. Few times in your life will you be empowered like right now to have such a positive effect on so many people at such a critical time in your and their lives. We are asking you to do everything within your power to quell the violence as it crops up as we know it does. Talk to your buddies, no matter how big or small, brave or timid. Let them know that we, all of us, I'm talking team captains, crew leaders, strong guys that we know you are, students, honor roll or those underachievers in their classes, that we are not going to throw down this spring. In years past we have had up to five or six of these break out fights, and it leaves us in a bad way. Grades suffer, learning is curbed and stunted. You lose, we lose, I lose. Not cool."
    "I realize that you may not believe that is is a big deal, but it is. And here's the additional bonus for all of you: if we are successful in quelling these throw downs, it's going to take on an added significance. Starting this year, and into the future, and years from now, you may not remember me or much about these years at this high school. That's fine. Move on with your life and do great things. High school does not usually equate to many of our best years, I know that. But I assure you, you will know more about yourselves, what a team working together can do, and that we can make a difference and that we do not have to sit idly by and let circumstances overwhelm us, and that we can be forces of good. You don't have to believe me now, but these things will translate into attributes and lessons for success in the future. You will be a better person for having participated and made a difference."
  He paused. A few hands were raised. Some questions and comments were raised. Good points, good feedback.
   A few minutes later the San Bernardino Principal piped back in. "By raise of hands, how many of you here now will commit to make this work this school year?"

 All of them raised their hands.

Doctor Bernal told them at the end," I am not here to waste your or my time. Let's do this and move on with our lives. This is something we can do. If we have a fight this year, I understand. If we have two. Too bad. Three? No, not that good. But I believe we can make this work, and with your efforts and cooperation as you have shown today to be in good faith, we are going to make this a better or best year. Thanks for coming, and more importantly, thanks for seeing this thing for what it is and doing something about it."

 They dismissed after twenty minutes, all were energized.

   You tell me how the rest goes.
  


  

Saturday, June 17, 2017

James Hardy: The Best and the Worst Face of Indiana Football, a Program Riding Uphill

I read that a former Indiana football player was found dead in a river. The weather now in June is warm across the country, school is out and kids and adults are playing outdoors. Accidents happen. Many famous and unknown people have died in recreational accidents.

What type of incident was this? Would I know who this player was? Was he a walk-on guy who never got much playing time and never even had a big play for a major college football program that has had moments of glory but never achieved true championship status?

Who had died so prematurely and tragically? Was he older? Had he played for my hometown IU squad before I was born?

No. Oh no. It was an elite player. One of the best.

James Hardy.

That guy. He had some tough moments in life; he appeared to have a tough death.

James had originally played for the Indiana basketball team under former Coach Mike Davis just 3 seasons removed from the Hurry'n Hoosiers competing for the NCAA national basketball championship in 2002. James had awesome athletic credentials. 6'7", strong, fast, elite.

A native Hoosier of Fort Wayne, breeding ground of many Indiana athletes, James became one of the best receivers in IU history, outpacing all others in receiving yards in three years,  and going pro early.

He did not have a great professional career, but he went farther than most who put on cleats in college.

I don't know if he saved his money well, but reading about him later I found he had planned on doing some acting and modeling in the entertainment industry after the football days.

He had had some domestic problems when still a student athlete, and apparently he had a drug problem for years, which may have lead to his untimely death.

Alas, IU athletes. Football players. There is always a range of imperfect people who play these high level high attention sports.

Indiana has always had an uphill battle when it comes to the gridiron. Not blessed and endowed with the history-rich traditions of Michigan or Ohio State, or dozens of other large schools across the Midwest and the rest of the country, us Indiana football long suffering fans have put up with a lot of futility over the years. There have been some good seasons, some great upsets.

Many times when we think we have a winning player or team, something comes up to spoil those hopes. Domestic violence issues. Drug charges. Underage drinking. Injuries. Academic ineligibility. Transfers to other schools or de-commiting  from the program. Coaches who choose another job for a bigger contract, coaches who die of brain cancer, coaches who are released for not helping their injured players enough.

Indiana has seen it all. And that is off the field of play.

In between the grid irons? Whew! Do you have a couple of days?

Of course, the relationship of the caliber and tenure of coaches and players off the field has a direct correlation to what happens on the field, game day. Which affects the crowds, which affects revenues, which affects overall morale and success. Or many years of failure and frustration.

Which brings us back to James Hardy. The best we have had? Not really, there have been better, maybe not visible on the score sheet, but IU has had better receivers in the college games and moving on to the pros.

But hard to find one as talented. And as troubled.

James Hardy, symbolic harbinger of the bittersweet sport of Indiana college football.

So much promise, so much unreached potential and accomplishment.

Mr. Hardy and family and IU football community: may this young 31 year-old former star rest in peace. May he be remembered for his good impact on those he knew, loved, and represented. And may the program he flourished under find a way to succeed, to get over the hump of being the hard luck loser on days when Indiana football could be able to succeed and bring some joy to us longtime fans.

Life is not easy, life is not fair. But life does have a way of giving back to those who put forth effort, passion, sacrifice, and devotion. Indiana will get there, despite the travails. Watch out powerhouses and perennial winners: the Hoosiers are going to get you when you think that its teams are destined to lose. Triumphs still await.

And James is hopefully discovering this now, above. God bless you. May He bless our team, and your memories with it. Thanks for giving us a few great moments of your life, for the underdog.

Win or lose, we choose to overcome.