Talking to Mom

      Talking to Mom

     I lived long enough to know what it is like to talk my mom. I spoke with her over four decades. She had serious cancer in her 70s, fought it, and passed away. That was three and half years ago. I was in my forties then. (Still am; now mid-forties). My youngest children didn't get to know her much, and my older ones as well, the more I think about it.

A mother like many others. And a grandmother. An aunt. A friend to many.

Ruth Muriel Carpenter, formerly Ruth Clinch until 1985, formerly Ruth McWilliams until 1965.

People change names over times, especially women. A lady like many others.

But for reasons intrinsic to humanity, she was my lady. My mom.

I spoke with her in my thoughts:

"Hi,  Mom! How have you been?"

"Good! I have missed you and the children, my grandchildren, but they are doing okay. I see that. I have been working with some in my area that are in need of attention, and that makes me happy."

"Wow! Where are they from?"

"All over. But the ones assigned to me have special meaning to what I have experienced. Many children, but some old timers, too, many from New England. And then I visit with the people of Togo. I have had to learn more French, for sure, and I learn some of their tribal language words. Some much closer to Adamic, it has stayed closer to God's language. And then I cross over to those from Sierra Leone. I learn more about their foods and their tastes, things familiar and prized by them. We cook all sorts of goodies. And no one is so sick like I saw in my time in West Africa. The heavens are well organized and sensible."

"Do you see your family that has passed on?"

"Sure, we have plenty of time to visit. They take notes on the living, that is for sure. People do or do not believe in God while they are alive, but many fail to realize that like the hymn says, "angels are silent, notes taking". That is so true! God is the ultimate authority, but there are a lot of people involved in the whole system of God. Hard to track how many. And the things that we do or say are defended or prosecuted like in a court. But it is not patterned after how US courts or tribunals are. It is much more personal. I have been a witness on many boards. It usually involves a lot of laughter and some tears. And we always eat really well during and after. And they can last a while... But there are always more to do."

"Do people benefit from these sessions like therapy or classes?"

"Yes, you could say that, but it is so enriching to see things from a better point of view. The human mind is capable of understanding these things, but unfortunately people get wrapped up in their personal cares, some which are very necessary like food and health, shelter and safety. Others who have all those things get distracted by selfish pleasures or even destructive ones. We are all kids who must obey our parents, in the end."

"How are your parents?"

"They are well. Very funny couple. I never realized how much they contributed to their surroundings. They are well respected for their love and dedication. They are gifted and doing a lot of work. My siblings and I were blessed to have been raised by them. You and your posterity are certainly blessed through them and their ancestors."

"Wow, life sounds good."

"It is. My brain works better: French is very common sense. Khmer is too, as well as Bahasa. I am on my tenth language, counting the local dialects like Mende and Temne. English is a fine way to communicate, but I have found out that these other human tongues are very key to knowing how the whole human family lives and prospers. Learning jokes in these different cultures is so fun! And French goes every where, like to the Indian and Pacific Oceans, places I could not visit as much. And the work there is very pressing, as always."

"What is the work, exactly?"

"You know it. Start with Genesis and go from there. There are some Indian and Chinese, even some Toltec and Mayan writings that explain it. Us humans were not too far off as we wrote our histories and affairs. But certain people know the program better than others. Pay attention to them."

"Which ones are the most important?"

"That's for you to figure out, I am not at liberty to say, for you."

"Do you miss talking to your closest loved ones?"

"Of course, but I have access to many files, and I review some of those. And I keep meeting others that have things that I need to see and experience. Lots of extended family. The movies produced here are so amazing. It would put most filmmakers to shame. A lot of the content of the films made on earth is more like garbage and waste than anything truly artistic. Of course, there are beautiful exceptions. I wish the film boards could get more of those right. C'est la vie."

"Have you met anyone that has truly surprised you?"

"Oh, yes. Some of the so-called "great ones" tend to be somewhat simple and even narrow minded. Some have a hard time accepting the truth. So we work with them, sometimes more. But many others who were never renowned help the more famous ones a lot."

"Well, I have got to go. Sorry, Mom, I am not sure how I found you or you me, and I have been informed this conversation is enough for now. I love you, you know that. I miss you, but I see your personality and charm in others, and that brightens my day."

"Yes, Eddie, that is what life is about: find the good in others, see the similarities and patterns of what is worthwhile, and keep sharing it. Enjoy it! Every minute provides treasures and joys. And it does not end. It keeps building. Things are how they should be, you simply have to accept it and live it."

"Thanks, Mom. I am glad we had this talk. I am not sure I will remember it. Like words and songs you shared with me when I was baby."

"That's okay, your soul is a great recorder, and all the input is saved. The bad stuff can be expunged and filtered for purity, but the good conversations and messages of love are always there. Like God, our Father, like His Son, like your family. We're forever, and we only move on. I have to go, too, but we'll talk again sooner than you think."

"Love you."

"Love you too, Eddie Bear. Be nice to people."

"I will, Mom. Thanks for showing all your kindness."

"My pleasure. It's the best thing there is. We only give back what we receive. I have been incredibly blessed. We simply continue doing that. Life is good."

"Yep, it is. I will try to tell others that."

"Of course you will. That's why you are who you are. That's why we were assigned to where we went. It all fits, like the planets in our solar system. All our lives make sense if we choose to see how it all fits. And it is huge and small at the same time. It's perfect. I'm not sure if Mark Twain lost his mind, but he definitely lost a lot of his hope due to personal losses. Don't let that happen to you. He has told me that he needed a re-boot, and he is happy that occurred, but he wants others to look past the tragedies. Reach for the hope. Okay, that's all! You know I am thinking of my guardian angel grandchildren! They are great! Au revoir!"

A mother and grandmother like many others.

But we all have our own to know and cherish.

Hold on to yours.

Be grateful she held you.

Hold on to love. Memories, conversations, shared and passed on.