Resentment - Analysis and Thoughts

    I woke up last night, while on my couch, during a football game: I had some negative thoughts. About myself. I felt certain feelings that made me feel negatively about me, and it was not pleasant. The thoughts felt accurate enough; I guess the normal self-consoling feelings and thoughts were not very present, but rather a host of qualities and attributes about me that indicate my weaknesses and faults were plainly or grossly evident.

    

    Okay. We can look at ourselves and be critical. This happens, it is normal. But when we know that others share these feelings and sentiments, then it is more harmful, because the end results become a larger totality of negativity, which is disturbing or sad, or an overall poor picture of self-analysis.

    Where is the hope and the positivity? Precisely. It cannot be all that bad, can it? Perhaps it can be as bad as one thinks. One should find the good attributes and the hope.

    Right? Correct. One would hope to find the good and the hope with oneself.

    Yes. That exists. There is light and positive thinking.

    There is a balance of feelings, certainly a mixture.

    Is there fear and dread in the negativity? Sure. This self-analysis and critical auto-esteem or assessment can lead to these feelings.

    Resenting oneself? Yes, resenting things about oneself. It happens. Others can concur, realistically.

    We need things to boost one's self concept and esteem in the better directions.

    We find escapes and excuses, distractions and coping mechanisms, many times all but the proper things to combat the negative qualities or attributes that we suffer from. We can lack the wherewithal  correctly engage and adjust to the best ways of overcoming our shortcomings faults.

    Thus, there is self-resentment, when looking oneself.

    Am I going in circles now? Likely. A downward spiral, in a way. A negativity loop, if you will.

    Where is the hope, where is the fix? Not just in ourselves, but it can be. We have God and others to help and assist, support and sustain.

    We need to pray. Work. Change. Adapt. Overcome. Have patience and forbearance, and a will to come out right. 

    Stick with good practices and initiatives. Pray to God. Participate in good things and events, classes or courses. Work hard. Learn. Grow.

    Learn to live with or abide the resentment towards oneself.

    Cultivate the positive and the strengths, if slowly, then surely.

    Bring oneself up and out, from within the downward loop to a higher reality.

    Try and do not giver up.

    Love and be loved. Clean up the messes. Continue. Persist.

    Find God and oneself, at the far side of the upward track.

    Yes.

    Wake up from the slumber of self-doubt and negativity and move on.

    Move on. 

    Can we?

    We must.

    Thank you and God and others to allow this to happen.

    Thank you for your patience with me.