Wednesday, December 24, 2025

Water and Pools Can Take us Away

 Water and Pools Can Take us Away

    There are people who swim on a normal basis. I know a few. Most of them do laps and get their exercise, both physical and mental. Some depend on it as a way to acquire the peace and comfort, or the way of life that allows them to be how they wish to be: strong, moving, working out, getting their limbs stretched and healthier and feeling better, their blood and heart and vital organs flowing and pumping well, to include the brain, which in the end is likely the main organ that drives everything.

    Water and ammonia and chlorine and H2O. That is therapeutic for a few I know; I am glad that they have this mode and mechanism to work out, swim, release their hormones or pheromones or demons or monsters or better angels, whatever the metaphor or process is. Exercise. At the pool, in the pool, going back to the chlorinated waters.

    Swimming. Doing laps. Moving. Churning. Completing strokes, achieving the goals set, the routines laid out. Making it across the pool tiles towards the next wall, the next flag, the next milestone.

    An active, healthy life. Life giving, generating, inspiring. Pools and waters help restore and relieve, assist in bringing the swimmer closer to what they seek. Respite, restoration, and all the good "r" words.

    Relaxation. Rest. Right living. Working in the lanes of restorative liquids and soul stimulation.

    Good on ya. With a clean bill of health. Water and pools, yay! To include hot tubs and spas. Hurrah for their life giving sustenance and presence!

    On the contrary, with waters and pools, rivers and oceans, lakes and streams, and even factory cesspools and pits of overflowing acids and gases and leaked oils and solvents, there is the dark side of what pools can do. Not to mention pools of blood or other human wastes. 

    Why so dark? Because with all good there is bad, with all light there is dark, with the appreciation for all things good and bright, there ought to be contrasts of what is good and bad, happy and sad, pleasant and painful. We can bring the good and meaningful from the polar opposites, those stories and realities that awaken us from ignorant slumber, prick our consciences from innocent ecstasy toward the harsh yet honest realization of mortality, in all its sheer beauty and depth.

    I know and know of some people who died in pools and bodies of water. It happens. We cannot, or at least I shall not, forget the things and places and people who perished by the very means in which others derive their blissful exercises and workouts, or carefree frolicking and play. Unlike the otters my sons and I saw cavorting in the pristine waters of Maine, these poor folks found their last breaths near the watery surfaces where they were attempting to recreate or play in. Not fair, not nice, but real. Hence my tales of their fates. James Joyce derived beauty and pathos from the cruel fates of death on contemplative nights under the cold, falling snow. I wish to share my own stories of reflective woe and remembrance, grateful for people and times past and tragedies survived. We make it past these hurdles and challenges, and count our numerous blessings.

    Not far from my house growing up there was a public pool where some poor victims drowned. I was there one day, maybe age ten or so, when a young man disappeared in the four foot area of the large Olympic-sized pool. He may have been partially obscured on that warm sunny day because of the swim lane chord with its plastic floating apparatus. What was supposed to separate the more organized, serious, if you will, swimmers, ended up being part of the end of this little guy. Was he older than me? Perhaps. Was he from the country, the outer neighborhoods and houses of Monroe County, or was he a townie like me? I never knew. I did not know him personally, but he impacted me.

    That otherwise normal afternoon he was moved to a gurney, then into the ambulance. They put an oxygen mask on his face. I saw them come and go, hushed or humbled by their movements and somber meanings. I do not think that he made it.

    Gone, after a would-be fun, summer pool day. He slipped, or never new how to really hold his breath, or how to float and paddle. He would never be a future boy friend, or older uncle, or cousin, or husband, father, and on. Not his fate. Not to be.

    Like my first grade mate Jeff Kinzer, who apparently went under the ice in a rural county country creek with his brother; maybe both perished in those frigid waters. Sunny or overcast, the Kinzer boys were claimed by the waters of unforgiving gripping and frigid tentacles likely close to their home. Out in the boondocks, where he was bussed into town to go to school with me. Water, hot, tepid, or cold, shallow or deep, fast moving or still, like a living thing, a monster capable of swallowing us whole. An Indiana frozen stream. Two boys not out of elementary school, laid down in their smaller states, together on earth and now in heaven. Forty five or more years ago, for me, for us, thinking of better sledding memories and experiences.

    We recall them, these watery victims, as shadows of who they might have been. Christmas past and future to not play out for them, like so many of us year after year. We should be relieved and thankful for our own lives kept and retained, that we did not meet these tragic circumstances wherever we have found ourselves.

    In the summer in my later twenties, the placid reservoir north of town, Lake Lemon, claimed the life of the roommate of Michael Van (name slightly altered), who was a young man from the nation of Colombia, who maybe did not know how to swim. Or maybe it was a severe cramp? Mike did not know him well, but noted the empty space left behind by this erstwhile friend and budding man in a foreign land.

    In Israel my roommate Shaeffer and I both pushed too far into a dark, water-filled corridor in a fun and refreshing water park. Israel, the land of living waters, for millions, almost snuffed out him or me. I was less threatened, as I held my breathe in that tunnel of water and did not dive as deeply in as him. His recounting was harrowing, and humbling. There for the grace of God, we kept enough air in our lungs and kept our brains alive and well, coming away from the Holy Land vibrant and ready for the next adventures of life. May we live forever!

    Some will drown in boating mishaps, some children will slip into pools in backyards, others may crash in from a bridge or a slick road. How many people drown per year? In our country alone? Across the world, it might add up to the millions. What of the Spanish Armada, for instance? Or the Chinese fleets making their way to Japan and its divine winds.

    The two boys of Santa Juana disappeared into the swirling quagmire of the local river, the great Bio Bio. This was the summer of 1990-1991, in Chile, where Christmas and New Year's are hot and dry. My missionary partner and I, Elder Newton, went to the home of the family and friends of the two young men that we would never meet. Maybe their bodies were never found? The river took them.

    A young man I knew at Brigham Young University, a native American or First Nation strong youth from upper British Colombia, Canada, was taken by his local river up there, somewhere. I knew he and his sister the summer of 1993, but when I saw her a year or so later she sadly explained that her younger brother died in a canoeing mishap. I was shocked. Was he wearing a life vest? I do not think that he had one. Either way, his life was over. She had left him up north. More than thirty years ago. Not married, not college graduated, a still photo capturing who he was to so many. What river fed by the Yukon or Northwest Territories, perhaps, or the Canadian Rockies of B.C. or Alberta. Which snows and ice became the liquids that would embrace, embalm, and snuff out this poor soul's spirit.

    It matters not. Some say it was meant to be. I beg to differ. We are not supposed to be drowned or have our heads knocked about by boats or rocks or waterfalls in streams and rivers, oceans and lakes. Right? We are not supposed to be sunken in battle ships, or crushed in submarine explosions, or freeze to death in ice berg sinking luxury cruises, or be swallowed up by titanic waves and overturned watercraft in storms or other crazy, wave-based anomalies.

    No, not supposed to happen. But it happens. Missionaries drowned by the beach in the Canary Islands, a rogue wave. Missionaries sank in a high Bolivian lake, the boat capsized. Regular ferry goers drown en masse in the Baltic Sea of Sweden, or the Bay of Bengal in India or Bangladesh, or the typhoon sweeps up a village of the Philippines, or a tornado and huge tempests sweep out camping girls in a Texas flood plain, or the hollows of the mountains of North Carolina.

    No, no, no! But alas, yes, yes, and so tearfully yes. Water comes in the least expected ways and flood and drown the dozens and hundreds of us. If not frozen or drowned at sea, some seamen and sailors are more horrifically consumed by the frenzies of the sharks, like the U.S.S. Indianapolis of World War II in the South Pacific.

    My beloved aged Arabic teacher, Helmy Raphael, who in his last breathe spoke to his partner teacher back in California, "I am going, I am going!", he exclaimed excitedly as he approached the Minnesota lake dock to allegedly take a trip in a kayak, by himself, without a life jacket.

    Helmy was found beneath the lake waters. Death by drowning.

    It happens. We of his last Arabic class attended his funeral at the local Catholic church, bigger than Egyptian-born Helmy's Coptic church, which would not contain the number to bid farewell to him, and his three adult children. Helmy lived out his life, and gave back to many, and us. His Arabic papers sit on our kitchen table this Christmas season as my son prepares to learn more of that ancient tongue, learning to speak the language of the Copts and the Orthodox of the Middle East.

    Jonah did not drown in the waters of the Mediterranean, on the way to Tarsus, Spain. John and Jesus dunked themselves in the River Jordan two thousand years ago, revivifying their lungs and spirits for greater climes and altitudes above. And thus to others, baptism represents death of the spirit and the body, but signifies the soaring nature of our souls: onward and upward, we will fill our chests and throats and mouths with the cries and songs of victory and glory.

    Hallelujah! Hosanna! We breathe in and out, absorbing the invigorating airs of freedom and love, gasping and grasping, forever beyond the clutches and pangs of the stultifying depths of the waters and oxygen-less atmospheres of the void of space, the waves of hate or apathy that wash over too much of humanity.

    Oh, no, not me! Stand back, deadly waters of the Red Sea, or the tempestuous crests of the Galilee, that would destroy wayward or little-faith fishermen of millennia-past. No, I will surpass these troubled waters, these bridges that buoy us and carry us beyond the inundations and craven storms of all times, both physical and mental, the life-giving and death provoking waters that might surge us ahead, refresh our souls, but a minute later soak us, sink us, and suffocate us to the point of no return. 

    What will it be, waters and waves of shores and rivers and lakes and pools that go on and on beyond the spaces of time and the universe?

    What will it be? 

    Life or death? I say to you and them all, I will take both: I will receive them all, and I will gladly hold my breath and subsequently open up my lungs freely to the waters and waves and surges and flows and lapping wakes, where I will go and who I will be what I was placed here to do.

    Take the plunge. I am coming in.

Sunday, December 21, 2025

Capitalism, Communism, the Quest for a Greater Good

 Capitalism, Communism, the Quest for a Greater Good

    Many people within the systems of capitalism look inward and and are self-serving, thinking of their own bottom line. That is too bad. We should live in ways that we can provide for own needs with less stresses and be able to help others. To live well and be generous to others. Most governments strive to address the needs of most of its citizens, to help all, or the majority of the population, thrive and succeed. We want to find a healthier way of living, while maintaining the public and private good.

    Marxism tried to make things fairer for the heavy laborer, or poor wage earner. The working class, or proletariat. For everyone, there was a hope of assisting all to be successful and productive. Less high income wealth, and more general prosperity. The less selfish state was going to be the vehicle to help overcome the chronic ills of endemic money and private ownership. Unfair wealth disparity.

    Life is not fair, my hard working electrical contractor dad always said. Is this what we must face?

    Capitalism versus communism. Not the only options, because there is also the socialistic options in between. There are also despotic authoritarian regimes.
    
    But we will will discuss these two main nodes of economy. Okay, maybe not flesh out the 

    Both ways have their serious problems and issues.

    We want the greater good, yes? Most of us. The majority wants the great society, as it has been called over the years. We want to be in a world where all of us can strive and thrive, where none of us are hungry, or always under the threat of missing the next pay check.

    Yet, too many of us are found in this way. Marx and Engels thought they had a plan to outdo the woes of Adam Smith and the rest of the western ways of economics. Owners and owned, the wealthy and those that serve. Servants.

    We all own things. Should some own the majority of everything? How do we share our freedoms and goods? What government systems and programs allow the most equality, or equity?

    Equity. Equality. 

    Can we achieve them? Equity is defined by being fair and just.

    What is fair and just? That a chronically sick or feeble person who cannot work receive hundreds and thousands of dollars or rubles or yen. How should we all earn our livings? What if there are those who cannot work? How much do they share?

    In the "free world" we vote for elected representatives that make laws that govern these principles. We vote for executives that uphold or implement those laws. The rule of law under principles and equity.

    Principles.

    Equity.

    Words to live and die by.

    Are these concepts worth fighting for? Dying for?

    What would we, individually and collectively, sacrifice for and even die for?

    We need police. We need militaries.

    We need God. Or religion. Or do we? We need humanitarian charities and philanthropic givers and donors, organizers and pro bono benefactors. Or do we?
 
    What does God, religion, and philosophy, all the secular ethical thinkers and postulators, all the heavy handed dictators and benevolent monarchs, the Chief Executive Officers, the bosses and managers, the judges and the chiefs, what do they all have to say about and do for the benefit of us all?

    Or, like us, the smaller time individuals, do they, these power arbiters, only control their own pieces of the pie? We can only do our parts of influence and help where we are found and operate.

    Yes.

    Communism versus capitalism. 

    Chile just picked Kast over Jara.

    They are both seeking the greater good.

    The greater pie remains 

    

Saturday, December 20, 2025

So Many Things Wrong with Me

 So Many Things Wrong with Me

    However, there are the things that are right.

    What can we say?

Friday, December 19, 2025

Soft or Hard: Strength Lies Within

 Soft or Hard: Strength Lies Within

    We call ourselves soft or hard, depending on what we think is good. Soft power: strength through peaceful economic and cultural means, using the rule of law and more nuanced marketing and production.

    Adam Smith, Karl Marx, Henry Ford, and maybe even Elon Musk (the richest man in our lifetime) might approve. Or no?

    Do we value more the hard power, in the might-is-right military and technological worlds of Sun Tzu and Machiavelli? Who is better? The wealthy magnate who out-innovates his opponents, or the empirical despot who marches her troops across borders and continents?

    Has there ever been such a female military leader? I digress...

    Who is stronger, who is mightier, who is more virtuous, might ask the ancient Confucius of China, or the modern sages of the 21st century.

    Who is wise, ask the savants and gurus and elected leaders and mavericks of our time?

    What is hard, what is soft?

    Is it wise to abstain from sexual partners prior to marriage, waiting for one hoped-for life partner for the the ostensible rest of one's life?

    Some people believe that is the strongest and most virtuous way. The best for society, for the community, and all individuals involved.
    
    Still others believe in life-time celibacy. Which is best? Never having human productive contact for the sake of progeny (or pleasure), or monogamy?

    Or open contact with multiple partners?

    Does it all depend on the person or the society?

    Who is soft? Who is hard? What is strict? What is easy?

    For many it is is is hard to resist such personal, emotional, intimate contact at age 16, or 21, or 26, or 35. What of it? Does it matter?

    What is soft? What is hard? Who is strong? Who is weak?

    What makes us strong, disciplined, principled, focused, productive, best?

    Work, good decisions, good health and habits.

    Looking to serve, self and others.

    Saving and preparing for the future by being responsible and accountable.

    Be soft when soft is right. And hard when that virtue and grit is required.

    It takes all the strength and grace of all the choices above to be the best of all worlds, the best of everything.

    Like an egg, like life.

Writers and Creators Are About

 Writers and Creators Are About

    Some masters remain in their own tongue, and weave masterpieces of art and literature. Others are distracted by other languages, yet still create and form their oeuvres and stories and epics and tales of woe and love, adventure and passion.

    Some of us dream of doing such things. Yet. We. Are. Left. Along.

    Alone, or out, or on the side. Peripheral. Marginalized? I suppose.

    Yet we consume and absorb as we go.

    Some love the words of the artists: they cling to Faulkner, or some others like Steinbeck, or Hemingway, or Rice or Walker...

    And on we must go. Think. Write, Speak. Communicate. Live. Die.

     

Thursday, December 18, 2025

Dads are Dads, Mine and Yours

 Dads are Dads, Mine and Yours

    Some of us do not have them, most of us do. Dads. Fathers. Papis and papahs.

    If we did not have one that we know on earth, who perhaps did not raise us, then we also have our Father in Heaven. We could talk and discuss much about the heavens, the divine, our immortal hopes past this mortal...

    But I am mostly thinking about earthly fathers. Us earthy guys. Some of us are dirtier than others. Some are much cleaner. I suppose that most of us are in between.

    Well, I wanted to write more. We can think of them, love them, resent them, (but not too much), and we can extrapolate all the memories and meanings of who they are.

    We are not perfect, nor do we expect that from them.

Indiana. My Indiana. Dreams and Hopes

 Indiana. My Indiana. Dreams and Hopes


    Wow, what a season. My Hoosiers are on top. Number one in the nation. Not Alabama, not Georgia, not Texas, not Ohio State nor Michigan.

    The Hoosiers of Bloomington!

    What????

    No typo. Curt Cignetti has taken the college football world by storm. Fernando Mendoza has done a remarkable job, and finished what Anthony Thompson of my high school years could not do.

    The Heisman rests in my hometown. 

    And now, the real test of the college football playoff. We get the winner of the Crimson Tide or Sooners. Perhaps a rematch with the Buckeyes... We cannot say. Texas Tech is a contender.

    Most of my life the IU football team has been down. Not always, but mostly. I have chronicled much of it. But not now!

    We got some playoffs to play.

    We shall see.

    More later. College football fans.

    Get ready!

Tuesday, December 16, 2025

Blog On-- We Are Fortunate to Be Here. No Promises of Mortal Permanence

 Blog On-- We Are Fortunate to Be Here. No Promises of Mortal Permanence

    I have been a bit inside of own head lately. Less on the blogosphere. Perhaps that is better?

    Who decides. Who decides?

    We all do.

    I just heard my daughter play the song "We are Charlie Kirk". If felt heart felt.

    He died a few short months ago. Seems that it was a while at this point, almost into the winter season. The days can go fast and slow, as do the weeks. And now months.

    Where are we? Where are you?

    Is your family okay? Is your soul at peace?

    Are you in Ukraine, a war-torn country, or Sudan, or another place where there is violence? I hope not. But some are there. Some are the ones who bear the brunt of it now. But not always, we hope.

    I have a friend that I knew as a child, and we were friends for a while, who will go un-named, who must be hurting for a few extra reasons right now. She raved about Brown University, perhaps her brother was there. She had one older brother. Her parents were Jewish studies professors. She was part of a legacy of the holocaust, as so many Jewish sons and daughters are.

    The attack on the Jewish of Sydney, Australia, was a heinous, awful, blow to many.

    Victims of a radical view and hatred that is felt across the world.

    The father and son extremists to the Islamic State, as it is. They were from India, or at least the father, who was killed during the attack.

    Too much hatred, too much violence.

    And others are sick, and are dying. We must hold on to the hope that remains. Some are closer family, others are celebrities and well known artists. We all succumb to the human strain. It is what we are.

    And be grateful.

    And love and serve while we can.

    I will.

    

Sunday, December 7, 2025

Japan and Its Empire Tempted Fate... 84 years ago, Sunday morning, today.

Japan and Its Empire Tempted Fate... 84 years ago, Sunday morning, today.


    Times have changed in one short life span. Long life span. My father is 88, and blessed, and remembers a ton of the past. Seeing Harry Truman elected on the local TV in his hometown of Massachusetts. 1948. Three years after the same man who succeeded Roosevelt dropped the H-Bombs on Hiroshima and Nagasaki.

    In my shorter lifetime, as a formative teen in the 1980s, Japan seemed like a nation and economy that threatened U.S. supremacy in the world. We did not fear or feel intimidated so much by China in those years as we did by the productive and formidable Japan. The place that we forced to submit with the atomic weapons when they struck us so forcefully four plus years before, that fateful Sabbath morning. Then came Korea, and Vietnam.

    Later the Middle East became part of the mix of our opponents in world competitiveness and violence.

    Always somewhere must pose a threat. If not the grand Soviet Union, nor Communist China of the People, then a nation or a group must rise up against the United States and its allies. Sometimes it is within. We ourselves become our mortal enemies.

    We compete one with another in matters of finance, money, estate, property, trust. We legislate laws and attempt to enforce them to keep us safe and avoid being preyed upon. Internally, domestically, we take care of ourselves. We try.

    There are public and private threats, and we always look for the foreign angles of infringement upon us. Latin American drug runners, the Chinese pushing precursors that funnel through Mexico or possibly Ecuador, other countries.

    Japan is a big friend now, an ally, a buffer to China and other notorious threats from around the globe.

    We lost 200,000 men and some women against Japan in the early 1940s. We still recover their bodies this past year. 231 from the fiscal year of 2025, many from World War II.

    Because of the threats from abroad, the Japanses first, then the Germans, with their European cohorts.

    May we always stay vigilant and strong, may we continue to be friends of Japan, and help them help us.

    We need all the help we can get.

    Till next year.

Indiana Beats Ohio State 13-10. I Must Comment, Right?

 Indiana Beats Ohio State 13-10. I Must Comment, Right?


    I, of all people, should comment and celebrate, right?

    Am I rite?

    Of course.

    From 2006 to 2009 I blogged about sports, with Indiana basketball and football being a huge part of it. It is who I am.

    Now, Indiana and Cignetti sit in the top sport, the hot bird seat? Hot bird. No, no. Whatever the expression. Cat bird? Yes, that sounds more like it.

    OSU did not impress me too much all year, although unbeaten, showed some weaknesses at times. But all the teams show those frailties, including the bigger powers Alabama and Georgia, and recently Texas Tech, who crunched my Cougars a second time this season, earlier in the day in Arlington, Texas.

    IU has a probable Heisman candidate in quirky, innocent, ebullient, Fernando Mendoza. 

    Wow.

    We are near the pinnacle, but the College Football Playoff awaits.

    In my normal world, I would be floating and ecstatic. But, 2025 has not been the normal world for me. Health, family, economics, jobs, has made it more sobering and I derive some ironic or somewhat less pleasure from the sporting news.

    I am older, and more tried, and I get it more when people say that they could care less.

    But, there is still the care-free boy and fan in me, too.

    May I always be.

    Go, Hoosiers! A possible national championship in football?

    While IU is thumped by Louisville. In the round ball sport.

    We cannot have everything, Hoosiers.

    Happiness, sadness, victory and defeat.

    Well, okay, yes.

We Think about Money Too Much

 We Think about Money Too Much

    I know I do. Or, maybe not enough.

Wednesday, December 3, 2025

Another IU B-ball Coach makes me Question His Savvy-- Little Stuff Matters

 Another IU B-ball Coach makes me Question His Savvy-- Little Stuff Matters

    His name is DeVries. Rhymes with peeves, or Reeves. I have liked his coaching and decisions so far this season, his first in Bloomington, but tonight there were some lapses in judgment. I hope he improves, for the Hoosiers' sake. Us fans. The legacy of futility since Bobby Knight left decades ago. A huge portion of my life ago. It has been too long since we had superior players, coaches, teams.
    
    IU stayed ahead of Minnesota on the road in the first half, but we lost it in the last 7 seconds. Which deflated the team the rest of the way. Walk off the court with better, smarter shots. When the Gophers hit a game tying three to tie up the game at 33, there was over six seconds left on the clock, and three IU players collided with each other and knocked each other  down to the floor. 
    
    Coach! Call a time out? No. Players are banged up, literally lying on the floor in pain, maybe concussed. There are six seconds left, you have 3 or 4 time outs to use, (UTILIZE), and you do not call one, your players scramble to get off a terrible possession and shot.

    I am not perfect as a person, I make terrible decisions, probably on a daily basis, but I am not getting paid millions to coach a big time college program. To win.

    What should have happened?

    Obvious. Call the time out! 

    I hate this trend of not taking advantage of the end of first half last possession. Opportunities squandered.

    Mike Davis. Kelvin Sampson. Tome Crean. Arhcie Miller. Mike Woodson.

    Et tu, Bruto?

    Please Darian DeVries. 

    Make better decisions to help your team win. What would Bobby do?

    And the lost challenge with 18:32 left in the second half? By the way, the ball was lost of off Coner Enright, who bugs me by not directing the ball in the direction of the basket. The goal is the goal, POINT GUARD.

    Oy ve.

    The players made some poor plays and bad choices, not their night that much on the road.

    But coach, you need to give your players a better fighting chance to succeed.

    Please. Be that guy, that winner.

    Each possession matters a lot.

    Go IU. Fight, fight, fight!

    And be smarter.